Rake's Redemption (Wind Dragons Motorcycle Club) by Chantal Fernando

Author:Chantal Fernando [Fernando, Chantal]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Gallery Books
Published: 2016-06-27T21:00:00+00:00

EIGHTEEN

A FEW more days pass before Rake walks through my front door again. Thinking it would be Tracker, I open the door without pause, smiling and saying “Good morning.”

“Hey,” I say when I see him, quieter and more subdued than my welcome. “How are you?”

He walks inside and looks around, then turns to face me. “Check who it is before you open the door, Bailey.”

I nod as he sits down on the couch, then lifts his hand to me. Hesitantly placing my smaller hand in his, he pulls me down to him. When I’m settled sideways on his lap, he buries his face in my neck and holds me, a desperate, almost hopeless air about him.

“Where were you?” I ask him, stroking my fingers through his soft, short hair.

“I needed to clear my head,” he rasps, the stubble from his cheeks rough against my neck. “Come to terms with everything.” He takes a deep breath and exhales before continuing. “I’m so fuckin’ sorry, Bailey, for what happened that night, and for everything afterward.” His voice cracks on the last two words.

“Fuck, Bailey. I don’t know what to do, or what to say. There’s nothing that could make this right. How can you even fuckin’ look at me? How am I supposed to look into your daughter’s face now and know what I did to you, her mother?”

“It’s not you who did it to me,” I say gently. I wanted him to know, but I didn’t want to see him like this. This isn’t what I wanted. I just wanted him to know the truth so he wouldn’t hate me anymore, not for him to become as broken as me. I wanted to set the pain free for both of us, not to lay it all on his shoulders.

“You didn’t know, Adam. You didn’t fucking know. It was a messed-up situation, but it’s over now. We need to stop looking back, unless it’s to remember the good times.”

He mutters a curse word and lifts his head. The pain in his green gaze makes my chest hurt and my heart feel like it’s been constricted. In my entire life, I’ve never seen him like this before. I don’t know what to do, but I’m wishing I hadn’t told him.

Why did I tell him?

He could have gone on hating me. I’d take that over this.

I’d take anything over this.

“How did I walk away that night?” he utters, shaking his head to himself. “How the fuck did this happen to us, Bailey? How? You were my fuckin’ everything, and it wasn’t supposed to be like this. I might not have fuckin’ known, but it’s all on me. I jumped to fucked-up conclusions. I never spoke to you after that, to give you the chance to tell me what happened. How the fuck am I meant to live with myself now?”

I once thought I’d never ever forgive him for what happened that night, but the truth is, I already have. It will always hurt, the pain will always be there, but it wasn’t intentional.

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